I am no longer fun.

I don't know exactly when it started, although I know the season of my life that put me on the path...but I am no longer fun. I am perfectly happy doing nothing. Mostly. I can turn hermit/turtle at a moments notice, often needing no invitation at all. At this point in my life I should either be married with children, or having fun out every other night or so. I don't do either. I am done work, which equals being done period.

Last year, after a particularly stressful season of my life came to a close, my closest friend told me she was looking forward to me staying with her. That it would be wonderful for me to do nothing but stare at the walls if I wanted. Funny thing is, now, a year later, that is exactly what I want to do. It isn't that I am anti-social. I don't think I am even depressed. But I am not exactly upbeat, nor do I have much energy. When faced with an evening where I have nothing pressing to do, instead of starting a project or heading out somewhere, I put the pj's on (or some other comfy clothing), turn on Criminal Minds, and veg for a while.

I suppose you could call it burn out. I was used to doing doing doing for so long, that now when given the option to do nothing - I won't! :-D ahh...somehow I will get the fun factor back, but for right now, I am a tired, boring, 33 year old with turtle tendencies. I will enjoy it now before I get going again!